future direction??

By right, I should doing my revision for my next paper which is business finance.
But, i'm dint have the mood to do so as now i'm starting to think what should i plan for my future.
IT's come to my mind:" SHould i work at outside first instead working at my dad shop?"
I ask my housemate and im starting to digest what he's sharing to me.
Instead of working at outside, why dont after I graduate,I straight forward help my dad which i already had the foundation since I started helping my dad at 19 years old.
Think deeply, how much salary i can earn at outside? how many year i need to work to promote myself to get higher position ? SHould i really need the working experience to get myself better?
All of this working year, what is my final destination?
Isn't come back to my daddy shop and be a boss?
If this is what i want? SO, what for im spending so much time at outside?!

Actually, what i really hope and wanted is..
I dont want my parent still need to burden so much pressure on supporting this family.
They already struggling for so many year.. and yet they are getting older.
What should i actually do to reduce their fatigue?
In future, Im NEEd to be the one to carry this fatigue, not my parent..
As the eldest son in family, im got the obligation to do that.
Take care of family member, supporting them, motivating them, or even sacrifice..
I want to be the man like this...

Question myself back again, After graduate..
Im want myself to get ready to face the challenge.
But ACtually Now, i very scare to face this as i admit myself..
NOt mature, lack of ability, timid, easy to frustrated..!
I NEED TO TELL MYSELF! face it!!!!!!!!!!
THere's must be a way to let it better!!
BE a MAN THAT YOU WANT TO BE!